just minishorts.

Try really hard. Move up to the edge of the coin and see both heads and tails at the same time while balancing between the flimsy point. I've been jumping from one surface to the other so often that I confuse far too many people.

Sorry.

I've made the biggest mistakes of my life these days. I've been letting go too much of steam, plunking myself into the most unnecessary of unnecessities—been getting angry when I could actually try to look at things objectively.

Which leads me to saying more.

I've been pretty much a kid, yeah? I've been reading books, and experiencing life with a mere touch and go attitude. Hence the vicious cycles, of betrayal and heart aches, the strangling ropes of jealousy that pounce upon me has never loosen yet.

I mean it to you. I'm sorry for being like this, impossible… stubborn, undignified, and flamboyant with my 'philosophies'. The worst thing about this is tying up the gags like the way that you've been doing, two rockets will simply destroy each other. So that person is a …. the other person is a…. so you hurt my feelings…. so he's insensitive… so she's hostile…. I'm sorry for falling into the very same trap that makes me feel so disrupted.

I'm crawling out.

By the time I crawl out I will be alive and well again. I just hope to God I still have that energy to move on and grow on.

Oh, and since I'm at this apologizing phase, might as well.

YOU! I'm sorry for hanging on for so long, for being unwilling to forgive and forget. I'm sorry to pester you, to trail your prints, to hold on to unimportant bits. I'm NOT GOING to say sorry for accusing you of breaking me apart, neither am I going to say that you've done the right thing. But I do have to say thank you to you for one thing, allowing me the experience to come to this point in life where I am finally brave enough to do this upfront.

I've bought a new package of tea, and the water's boiling, the tea leaves smell nice, and I'll take very good care of this cuppa.