I’m Going To…
Try really hard. Move up to the edge of the coin and see both heads and tails at the same time while balancing between the flimsy point. I've been jumping from one surface to the other so often that I confuse far too many people.
Sorry.
I've made the biggest mistakes of my life these days. I've been letting go too much of steam, plunking myself into the most unnecessary of unnecessities—been getting angry when I could actually try to look at things objectively.
Which leads me to saying more.
I've been pretty much a kid, yeah? I've been reading books, and experiencing life with a mere touch and go attitude. Hence the vicious cycles, of betrayal and heart aches, the strangling ropes of jealousy that pounce upon me has never loosen yet.
I mean it to you. I'm sorry for being like this, impossible… stubborn, undignified, and flamboyant with my 'philosophies'. The worst thing about this is tying up the gags like the way that you've been doing, two rockets will simply destroy each other. So that person is a …. the other person is a…. so you hurt my feelings…. so he's insensitive… so she's hostile…. I'm sorry for falling into the very same trap that makes me feel so disrupted.
I'm crawling out.
By the time I crawl out I will be alive and well again. I just hope to God I still have that energy to move on and grow on.
Oh, and since I'm at this apologizing phase, might as well.
YOU! I'm sorry for hanging on for so long, for being unwilling to forgive and forget. I'm sorry to pester you, to trail your prints, to hold on to unimportant bits. I'm NOT GOING to say sorry for accusing you of breaking me apart, neither am I going to say that you've done the right thing. But I do have to say thank you to you for one thing, allowing me the experience to come to this point in life where I am finally brave enough to do this upfront.
I've bought a new package of tea, and the water's boiling, the tea leaves smell nice, and I'll take very good care of this cuppa.
August 20th, 2004 at 3:27 am
You can learn much from others, but the deepest knowledge must come from within yourself. Your own consciousness is embarked on a reality that basically can be experienced by no other, that is unique and untranslatable.
You share an existence with others who are experiencing their own journeys in their own ways, and you have journeying in common, then.
Be kind to yourself and to your companions.
August 20th, 2004 at 9:48 am
amen.
August 20th, 2004 at 12:22 pm
wah… very “chim” by mwt .
Chooks… I think you just need to relax a bit more.
August 20th, 2004 at 1:28 pm
NOW I WANT TO KNOW WHO THE HECK IS ARTIC MAGNUM WARFARE USER
August 20th, 2004 at 1:29 pm
and yeah, I would fancy a long rub down my tense muscles, hot hot chocolate, and soothing words of ‘all will be okay’. from someone. anyone that is.
August 20th, 2004 at 2:14 pm
AWM user, that’s by some kinda supreme being… who has been around us since forever..
Amen…
August 20th, 2004 at 2:18 pm
Been seeing ya bounce up and down emotionally for the past week.. everything OK?
Take care yous… things have a tendency to right themselves out in the end.
J
August 20th, 2004 at 3:00 pm
no worries. the bouncing thing, sorta happens around this time of the year annually.
that’s all part and parcel of being me i guess.
August 20th, 2004 at 11:56 pm
just don’t lose your bounce…
August 21st, 2004 at 10:59 pm
that sounds pretty obscene