Need strength. Desperately.
Mar 19, 2005 in Diary-writer
'Twas a week of brain-juice squeezing. The outcome of it was not too favourable, uh-huh, so I'm left to two days of pseudo-holidays to think about what I'm going to write and how to approach the topic, when I drop back at the office on Monday afternoon. At the same time, I've got an impossible deadline of Monday MORNING to submit two completely edited Form 1/2 books, and that somehow has got to make its mark.
What to do? The extra money beckons, and yes, I have been out of a job, and hence, out of a salary for over a month. My last salary at OUP was cut in half (no thanks to the 'training' provided by the company, that required money, hence the pay-back process). My money from the kids is not that much, besides, I don't like to squeeze too much out of tuition classes, at the end of the day, I'm not a professional teacher, I'm just doing it, well, because when I started the class I was still a student in my first year, and I can't just leave the kids alone (don't ask me why don't I send them to another teacher).
And the Master's degree…well, the master's degree… can I choose not to talk about it?
Even though Eric and I meet up every other day, we've been looking into each others' eyes with a terribly tired sigh… he only gets to come over at 10 on particular nights, and by the time dinner is over (yup, dinner is at 10, when you're living my life), we're just so spent, even that mandatory 'good night see you tomorrow' hug is so tiring… the other night I think I fell asleep just like that.
I'm so bloody tired. Yesterday I had a severe case of writer's block. Jeesh. I'm only 24, going on 25… shouldn't there be more energy in me? *PUMP PUMP*
Any remedies?