just minishorts.

When I moved on to Wordpress 1.5, I decided to fix up a new about me page. See there's nothing that reveals much about me over there now, it's very minimalist, me being in a state of mind that has decided that nothing is ever constant anymore.

Of course it was to my amusement that I got this (and well, don't mind me, yes of course I'm sensitive, otherwise I wouldn't be me anymore).

I used to really like your blog that I recommended it to my friends, but then, I noticed you’ve since become more bitter and less like the minishorts I knew when I started reading your blog almost 2 years ago.
What happened? Stress at work? Personal crisis? I don’t know, but I hope that you’ll revert back more to your ‘old’ self… or maybe you’ve never changed at all and it’s just me who doesn’t really know you – hmmm… oh well..
I’m not criticising you in any way, ya? Just my 2 sens worth… Cheers, all the best to you!

The nice thing is this person called himself (I assume its a 'he') a '(used to be) regular visitor'.

I'll have this to say. Of course you're criticising me. The beautiful thing about people who provide constructive criticism is, after they give out their two cents, they take leave and try to remain guilt-free by saying 'I'm not criticising you'. But I digress because morally, I feel obliged to explain this so-called 'change of style'.

But first I'd highly recommend a visit to N-drew's site because what he says there is very relevant to this thing that I'm going to blab about. Now, pulling out words from what N-drew said, I find this very very true:

You have no right to demand the owner of the blog to change, delete or make any changes to their blog just because you don't like it.

Simple English right?

But this much I can tell you: my life, and minishorts.net are two completely different entities. I am not reflected in this blog, I mean can you imagine if I spent every single day of my life telling screwed up fables or talking about vaginitis or creating imaginary blog wars? It just does not become me.

Secondly, I am a very private person. Photos to my life not-withstanding, it is your privilege that I am open enough to want to provide an insight into my personal life for your reading, and in the very basic Asian family, this is actually not-such-a-good thing. So count your blessings that you get to read at all. Heck, this is why some posts are passworded, duh.

Thirdly, this site is funded by money from my own pocket, and you don't do a fucking thing to keep it going, and I seriously doubt that my AdSense partners are going to contribute anything substantial to the maintenance of this site. That said, I don't even fucking give a damn if you are a visitor, or if you are a troll or whatever. I don't care if you find me boring anymore. And the end of the day, the blog, called minishorts.net is not your friendly free kinokuniya, so you have no customer rights to demand. I thank you for finding me interesting enough to want to read and follow for two years in the beginning, but now that you find me boring and not-to-your-liking, it is none of my business.

Like I said in my intro

By the way, you are actually not welcome here, but maybe like the rest of the world you just want to pop by and spill your thoughts too. Up to you lah. I’m all for freedom of speech. Because I’m so kind I always leave a space for you to say something in retaliation to what I say.

That said, since it is of particular interest to some 'caring' visitors, I've always found that 2 years ago, I was a very shitty person who did not know how to keep dirty laundry inside the smelly cupboard. Obviously, the writing of a person does reflect his or her personality, and seeing the melancholic, emotions-ridden posts that I used to post back when I was a wee-bit younger than now sometimes makes me cringe. On the personal front, friends who know me in real life would know that things are right now getting much better, and I've had more time to explore different methods in writing.

Do I sound bitter? Maybe you're just hungry for depressed Sylvia Plaths. Well you can look somewhere else because I've moved on. Or maybe you can be cruel and pray for another break up because when that happens, yeah you'll find me in that old style again (because I always write in the way that some people want me to write when I'm sad).

But the final lesson that you learn today (despite the absence of the daily parable, I'll do that when I'm in the office because that's when I get access to the original tales), is this: Every Blogger Blogs For Himself/Herself. What I've just illustrated proves my point perfectly.

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