…this intense wish to be right, all the time. Usually its easy to delude myself into my own universes, especially if you're the only kid at home, and when you're brought up to believe in yourself.

When I was young, my teachers used to write in my report card, under conduct:

B+, good student, but sometimes, overconfident.

This is a trait that shines still, though it is not always a bad thing.

But throughout the years, experience has taught me that perseverence does not always equal success, and plans do not always get carried out. Whatever makes the cut though, is always a silver lining in the gloomy born cloud, and well… it takes a while to realise this anyway.

How I wish at times like this my gut feelings are not real, are not right. But experience too, has taught me, I'm usually quite right.

I've wanted to believe in this line: I shape the realities around me. But right now, I don't want to believe it because, what I am shaping right now, isn't exactly in my control, isn't exactly what I want or will to be.

If you have read me for a very long time, you would know what's going on.