just minishorts.

It's just that… why do we keep discussing ways to love our country best?

I mean we keep going on and on and on and on about this, and it keeps coming out again and again and again and again. So I'm here left wondering: gee, where do we actually stop to agree. Or disagree.

When will we realize that instead of, practising 'see I think you're malaysian but not as malaysian as I am' discussions over, well, 'you see ah, I love this country but well ah, I think ah, this ah, that ar…' better work hard at the present the current and the now and do the best that you can do for yourself RIGHT NOW.

I wouldn't call it selfish you know. I don't think its entirely wrong to be selfish, not in this case anyway. I mean, we keep wanting things and say smart things that make people like me even nod nod nod, then we promise the entire world (even coax ourselves into believe this shit), that you know, 'If you know, I get to do this, get to do that, I bet you know hoh, I will… bla bla bla.'

What blablablabla rubbish.

I mean, I may want to change the education system, I may want the NEP to be abolished, I may want to have freedom of religion, and I may want to have equal rights as be the next person, but…

Seriously, I-MAY-WANTS, if given to you, you sure you'll practise what you'll promise to do? You sure you won't get complacent? BTW, you sure you'll stop complaining and start focusing on now and living with what you have now?

You know what I think? I think we just ought to get back to life, focus on living life right now, making the best out of whatever we're getting right now, for THAT purpose (whatever your purpose is) before we turn the blogosphere into the local kopitiam and all of us into armchair politicians, paying only 80 sen for a cup of coffee and taking over the area for over 4 hours when the taukeh can very well have loads more customers and earn more money and *gasp* pay more taxes so that we can have better tarred roads.

You see I can be intellectual too, sometimes. My intelligence and concern EVEN surpasses my expectations. WOW.

But of course, if your purpose is to be just that (talk about politics and speak your minds just to prove a point), go ahead. I'm not about to stop you.

Just as long as you'll stop saying that, see, this girl, talk crap, doesn't really give a damn.

Which goes to prove a point of mine (a pretty pointless one), it's not that I don't give a damn, I do, I seriously do, but I prefer to think it better that I know I love my country in my way, and I don't have to go blasting out to the world in obscure bombastic phrases and lines how smart people like me seriously love my country in a cleverer way than you do.

When you're as patriotic and as intelligent as I am, you know why I don't like to talk about why I get a RM83.6k-a-month-salary but still don't want to come home to work.

The reality (IMHO) is, we're only as patriotic as whereever on earth we're born on allows us to be. You don't get this leh. In simpler terms, IN REALITY, I can keep telling the world that hey look here I'm seriously very very fugly, but if everyone else keeps saying I'm-a-babe, I can't help it.

Just like how I keep saying, minishorts doesn't stand for a set of short pants, they actually mean mini short stories, people still don't believe me. They keep asking me to turn up in minishorts (which I don't have).

If by, now, you still don't get this very smart and clever I'm-more-patriotic-than-you-are rant I suggest you get a brain transplant. And I won't donate mine. It's good enough for me.

Same reason I don't like to talk about the-very-important national issues in the country. Not because I'm not as clever as the biggie bloggers with those bigger-than-coconuts manberries (if you read me more often you know seriously I'm genius material). Not because I do work with the government (in education) sometimes and yes I get frustrated with the limitations I have to work around. But after such a short time in the system, I think, we have some pretty good limits, and the better person ought to learn how to live with the currents, or think about ways how to live AROUND the currents and still make the best out of things. Not merely complain and talk about 'how much better things will be if it were not like this'.

Also, because right now, with all her shortgivings, Malaysia is really good enough for me.