Artistic integrity? ARTISTIC WHAT?
But here. This is another rant.
(I seem to do it more often recently hoh? Yeah so I'm pissed with the world. So sue me.)
A little bird (called technorati) gave me trackbacks to a certain little ex-reader of mine… who said this about my posts.
The earlier ones caught my breath with their occasionally rambling but thoughtful and oddly idealistic musings; the latter works practically exploded with angst. I could imagine her "pecking" away at her keyboard back then, and violently jabbing away today. She's registering far more hits today than ever before, in fact, Xiaxue has a worthy competitor, but….maybe it's just me, but i preferred the old minishorts.
OK nevermind the uncalled for Xiaxue reference, but after that she talks about how she lost interest in me.
And maybe the feistier, snappier her is still her, just older and more cynincal. But I couldn't help being troubled by the sneaking suspicion that she had sold out. That along the way, the fame had gotten to her head and she's no longer writing for herself. It had nothing to do with the fact that her new space was liberally strewn with ads. Oh if you don't know, if you click on 'em often enough, you help us become rich. In theory anyway.
OK. You lose interest in me… I don't give a damn about that you know. After that she went all 'well you see I'm lucky because…
First and foremost, I write for myself. I want to be able to write freely, unfettered by social expectations or commercial motivations. I started this blog not to make it an enterpreneurial entity - not now anyway. I can't deny that a couple of months down the road, when I'm still pounding the pavement with resumes and I've still not made a single cent from my writing thanks to my stubborn "artistic integrity", I may change my mind and start populating my blog with those nice images from adsense. But not now.
ARTISTIC INTEGRITY?
PTUI PTUI PTUI.
So clever, aren't you?
Now let me tell you what happened to my 'artistic integrity'.
Suddenly the moral policemen like you decided to appear and started to point fingers at me and say that I 'sold out.'
Like you know so well lah.
My comment to this girl (OK I appreciate that you USED to like my writings, but your post still dissed me ok? Here you go, honest and upfront):
wah how you know i don't blog for myself?
btw, adsense is there to help me pay for my hosting. it's suppose to at least contribute like 10% to the RM250+ that i have to fork out every year so that people can read my site for free.
so far i've only got like… USD 4.30 only. Since putting it up like, two months ago!
how's that for 'earning revenue'?
*OK sorry but you really dissed me with this one. and yeah so i grew fangs. ouch*
Artistic INTEGRITY my ass. BABY. You forgot one important thing, I am not a bunny wabbit. My name is minishorts and you have NO FUCKING RIGHT TO SAY THAT I SOLD OUT AND I DO NOT BLOG FOR MYSELF.
(As if cussing all the time brings the legions of fans in. Hah!)
That's almost like saying that SouthPark is a bigger hit than Disney.
Wait. It is?
Or is it not?
OK. Someone tell me the stats.
June 22nd, 2005 at 11:32 pm
……I’m still trying to get over the XiaXue reference.
What on earth is selling out on a blog anyway?
June 22nd, 2005 at 11:33 pm
I think I’d just add another into the jealous of the F4s. Probably she was trying to gun for a ‘hidden meaning’ post but just couldn’t help herself by saying how SHE does it right like what you used to. Sigh.. it’s okie la mini. Besides, many like what you are now and I think you won’t change anymore.
Unless of cause after you become a Mum, you won’t get the chance of writing ‘horny’ fairy tales anymore.:roll:LoL!
June 22nd, 2005 at 11:33 pm
June 22nd, 2005 at 11:40 pm
I’m guesing there’s a reason why she stuck “artistic integrity” between inverted commas.
June 22nd, 2005 at 11:43 pm
Bunny Wabbit?! Waaaait a minute….Wait a jaw-rubbing, ass-scratching minute…I JUST read that term in some blog recently. Hmm…clues, clues! Or you could be a darling, Claire Khoo, and tell us who it is.
June 22nd, 2005 at 11:45 pm
The world world reads only XiaXue and minishorts ke?
Takde ke lain references yang boleh digunakan?
Macam2 saje..
June 23rd, 2005 at 12:27 am
Sold out? Dislike the words, more so people who accuse other of it.
I like your writings!
June 23rd, 2005 at 2:27 am
What is it with these ppl? Only now they start commenting on this lah that lah when you guys appeared in the papers. Tsk..tsk..tsk…fame attracts jealousy. Suanie, you better becareful, your muka terpampang besar besar on the papers. Becareful when you’re walking alone =P At least mini’s one was hidden…LOL….
June 23rd, 2005 at 4:41 am
South Park is way cooler than Disney! But anyhows, that’s how stuffs works. Like some kiasu dude last time who was jealous of the attention other bloggers were getting..
Sod them.
June 23rd, 2005 at 5:43 am
I still haven’t earned a single sen from Adsense. Nor has anyone been generous enough to use my Paypal “Send Me Money” link. Hhmph. *crosses arms*
June 23rd, 2005 at 7:15 am
hahaha… people make assumptions.
IMO war of words cannot solve everything well.
what if 1000 people write the same thing about you, are you gonna blast back everyone also?
Life is about making choices…
Since they choose negativity,
it is thier choice… (become pathetic).
no need to waste time and energy to tell those kiddos what to do right?
moral police exist everywhere…
adapt to reality to survive well.
good luck
a random blog reader
-Life Feel
(deleted by minishorts: i’m sorry no blogwhoring in my comments sections)
June 23rd, 2005 at 8:02 am
if u dun like it, then stop reading it …
for me, i find her blog very interesting…..esp the bed times…..i’m still waiting for cinderella part II !!!
June 23rd, 2005 at 8:09 am
Man, bitching and bitching over some blog and opinions on each others blog, seriously you guys are taking this blogging thing too seriously.
June 23rd, 2005 at 8:40 am
Chill it off miniskirt…
Its probably a long War of Fames coming out here..
The more bitches around, the merrier the war will be.. soo sit back and enjoy.
June 23rd, 2005 at 8:55 am
*splashes cold water at mini*
Eh, you know if you keep this up you’ll get a world class peptic ulcer. Jagalah kesihatan anda selalu! Hehehe.
June 23rd, 2005 at 9:25 am
So much anger…yes, i can feel it. You are the chosen one!
/hands mini a chillpill
Take it easy mate, fame comes with a price.
June 23rd, 2005 at 10:22 am
I just hav one thing to say:
Don’t let the numpties get under your skin.
June 23rd, 2005 at 10:34 am
Actually… we do have a right to say whether you’ve sold out or not. It’s a value judgement, an opinion, and within rights of anyone who comes in to your blog.
You’re the only one who can say whether you write for yourself or not. No one else can actually say that. We can speculate, but saying it is your province.
It’s all opinion, isn’t it? Why do you care? You’re writing for yourself.
June 23rd, 2005 at 10:36 am
ok lazy to answer everyone, as usual.
why do i care?
aiyah let’s just say that there’s too many ppl who love to hate me, and hate to love me etc etc.
but doesn’t mean i can’t blog fucked stuff about it right?
bunnyrunny, you blog it, you be responsible for it.
I think she asked for it anyway.
thanks and out. Next post coming up.
June 23rd, 2005 at 11:20 am
Sure you can blog about messed up things. Just don’t start expecting the comments by everyone asking why you care about others to stop coming.
Because, remember, you blog it, you’re responsible for it.
June 23rd, 2005 at 11:28 am
aiyoh tariq: tell me something we don’t already know?
June 23rd, 2005 at 5:58 pm
I thought ‘Tall Poppy Syndrome’ only occurred in Aussie! Looks like it’s in Malaysia too. Hope they stop heaping crap in the F4 - getting tired of it.
June 23rd, 2005 at 10:57 pm
… err…this is my second time back on this site… not sure what i just walked into
but Cindy Part II is really funny. look forward to part III 
June 25th, 2005 at 2:34 am
I still have no idea what selling out on a blog is
June 26th, 2005 at 4:06 pm
I hate this phrase: I blog for myself, it’s so self-effacing&contardictory. If thou write for thyself, don’t publish it in a public site, which a webblog is.
I hate another line: You sold out.
Moral policing by Skodeng Squad backed by Malaccca CM had a short life. Let’s leave thy moral judgements in eitheir the closet, or in the police torture chambers, or at the various religious institutions.
A small war is created by this “exchange”, but the resulting debate is productive, at least fostered in me a desire to put word to writing at thy blog — virginal stop. (PS:I posted this after visiting the other warrng party’s blog to get a balanced view.)