Second Thoughts
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Life has got a wee bit scarier than usual.
I know some colleagues are reading this blog. I'm fine with that.
I also know some ex colleagues are reading this blog. I am somewhat fine with that.
I also know that some ex bosses are reading this blog. I am… forced to say that I am fine with that.
I also know that some of the authors that I have worked with on collaborated projects with are reading this blog. A few have mentioned it in passing to me. I am flattered by your faith in me and thank you for supporting my little 'cause'.
I suspect some ex schoolmates are reading this blog. I think I am fine with that.
I suspect some ex-bfs or ex-would-be-love-interests are reading this blog. I think I can get used to the idea of that and say that I am fine with that.
But what's so scary about this is the fact that because of all of the above, I am becoming less spontaneous. I am now, actually, using my brain to think twice before I type every single word. Which is not quite right.
I try my best to type my mind so that everything will be as authentic as possible. It is my idea of 'speaking out what first comes to mind'. Then I can work backwards on the first draft (or anything of that kind that appears in the posts) and then appraise myself or criticize myself on bull's eye occasions or unfortunate almosts.
Suddenly this motto is becoming very hard to achieve.
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July 12, 2005 at 5:05 pm
Just do it, who gives a fuck…
So what if you know them, knew them, might know them in the future, you can’t live life on ‘what ifs’
And you shouldn’t blog according to ‘what ifs’ either.
If something happens deal with it, but don’t assume the worst case.
July 12, 2005 at 5:08 pm
i know.. it kinda ruins the whole purpose of blogging in the first place right? if u can’t say wat u wanna say then.. why blog? which is why.. i still prefer the comfort of small, homey blog pages..
July 12, 2005 at 5:18 pm
well… just b yourself
they want to read, read loh who knows they will click yours google ads and giv u more $$ at the end
July 12, 2005 at 5:19 pm
Don’t change your style, and don’t be intimidated by the comments…
There’s a reason why there’s so many ppl reading your blog… because you’re good just as you are… Once you start analysing your writing style, you lose it…
So, don’t be bothered by what we say on the comments box… we’re just trying to get your attention…
July 12, 2005 at 6:00 pm
Style is alive, it reflects what you are at the time something is written. Even if you have to think twice, it still comes across as being distinctly you.
I have to face the same situation everyday at work…
July 12, 2005 at 6:26 pm
… suddenly you don’t have your private space anymore.
dont run ok. if u run must tell me where you run to ok? muaks!
July 12, 2005 at 6:45 pm
*grin*
My second motto (first one not important):
Anonymity is a warm blanket..
July 12, 2005 at 7:32 pm
yea. know what you mean.
got a bit weird for me too when i found out people i actually know were reading mine. including my family!
July 12, 2005 at 8:46 pm
Be thyself. From Desiderata, by my fav poet Max EHRMANN:”Be thyself. Especially do not feign affection…”. Always works — autentic, connects, from the heart.
July 12, 2005 at 9:14 pm
haha same feeling i felt when my gf found out my blog hehehe
July 12, 2005 at 9:23 pm
Minishorts,
I am wondering when you are going to stop writing about ‘Blogging’ and how you are coping with your newfound fame. Frankly, I don’t understand all the buzz around your weblog. Sure your little bedtime stories are somewhat interesting, but your rants are ordinary. The only thing that sets you apart is that you can string sentences together with minimal grammatical errors.
July 12, 2005 at 9:34 pm
Blogging is about self-expression and if your employers find your blog contents incriminating, then I think it’s time to move on.
July 12, 2005 at 9:37 pm
Hi Ms Minishorts!
I’ve started reading your blog since …what? last week? And I thought your blog posts are fantastic. Reader’s Digest and Newsweek can wait and take a back seat now.
I think with regards to your blogger’s block issue — whether people read it or not, it’s still your blog and you have control over it, man! I suggest _perhaps_ you can ignore the counter number on your blog and just shit your poo (I paraphrased here).
You blog, your world. Meanwhile, you posts have a new fan here already.
Smile! :-p
~Shawn (all the way from .sg)
July 12, 2005 at 10:29 pm
“The only thing that sets you apart is that you can string sentences together with minimal grammatical errors.”
That should really be a good thing, shouldn’t it?
Maybe you can start another blog… longshorts
July 12, 2005 at 11:12 pm
You know, that’s the funny thing about blogs.
Who said anything about spontaneity being integral to blogging? Who said being true to yourself is the spirit of blogging? Who said opening yourself to the world is the spirit of blogging?
Here’s a fact that a lot of people miss out: that the blogger they see on the Internet, more often than not, is not the person, and all of the person.
A blog is a series of objects, presented over the World Wide Web, typically in HTML, in a sequential chronological order. That’s it.
Everything else depends on the mission statement of your blog. It need not be public, it can be something you know, and you know yourself. Nothing, nothing in it needs to say anything about being true to yourself, being honest, being spontaneous or having any integrity.
You’re sad because you’ve lost your private space? You haven’t been looking hard enough. Do you know that I have two blogs? One is my ‘public’ blog, which has undergone multiple incarnations, and is available to everyone.
The other resides in http://www.livejournal.com.
Do you have any idea what kind of freedom the private blog afforded to me?
July 12, 2005 at 11:36 pm
At least you have readers – my blog is so unpopular I have to tie a pork chop around it’s neck to get the dog to read it.:lol::lol:
July 12, 2005 at 11:48 pm
Your Life Was Never Your Own
Your words were public from day one. You never tried to hide. Why are you weeping? You never had the privacy in the first place.
July 12, 2005 at 11:49 pm
i find it amazing that people will take my literal words for granted and still be able to speak their minds which in the end goes to prove that same old well-known fact that you seriously don’t know anything about me at all and yet you wanna act like you know damn a lot.
like Carrie for instance.
I also don’t know why I am so overrated. Now Carrie, since I’m just a blogger who is capable, (unlike ‘the rest of the blogosphere’) of posting a post with minimal grammatical errors, ask yourself why you posted such a silly comment and then perhaps you’ll be able to think like me, for instance.
Tariq: I do have a private space. it’s called diary-x and it is FANTASTIC. but this post was something else altogether … eh if your boss knew you were writing naughty fairy tales how would you react to it? Besides, do the things i blog in here look private to you? I thought you, Tariq, of all people, would be smarter, and more observant.
whoever said I was stopping the blog?
July 13, 2005 at 12:59 am
this is like arguing abt nothing at all.. but interesting argument(s) nonetheless..
minishorts are u sure u don’t know why you’re overrated? (i have a theory, but to me it’s a no-brainer)
you are right in saying that we don’t know you, and comments posted have to be taken on face value, and based on interpretation of your words – it would be rather annoying and repetitive & also quite redundant to start every comment with ‘though i don’t really know you minishorts but blahblahblah..’
still, there will be idiots out there who will say stupid things, and there will be people who tink that i’m one of those idiots (but they also don’t know me mah so never mind lor)
it never ends.
July 13, 2005 at 1:03 am
me: ok maybe i’m femes because i’m hotter than most people.
July 13, 2005 at 1:18 am
depends who ‘most’ people are… not saying you’re not hot. but there are a LOT of hot people out there – a friggin LOT.
lazy to delve into my theory now.. but you’re probably not interested anyway..nitez!
July 13, 2005 at 1:55 am
I don’t see what was so silly about my comment. Maybe you need to quit being defensive and stop trying to address your critics and actually start proving them wrong with your actions.
No doubt you can write, but perhaps you should utilize that with less pretentious attitude.
July 13, 2005 at 2:35 am
carrie, i (speaking for myself only) think what’s silly about your comment is the line “The only thing that sets you apart is that you can string sentences together with minimal grammatical errors”. THAT doesn’t set her apart at all. Heaps of people can do that. You and I can do that. The people (most anyway) who read this blog can do that. Otherwise how could the very people who “overrate” her appreciate her writing?
But i also wonder why be defensive when we all don’t know you and you don’t know us?
July 13, 2005 at 2:51 am
Personally, I read minishorts only for the p0rn and the photos of her in tight clothing.
But that’s just me lah.
July 13, 2005 at 2:53 am
me: I think you are too kind towards your malaysian counterpart bloggers when you say “heaps of people can write with minimal grammatical errors”.
That whole ‘I don’t know you and you don’t know me therefore you have no right to judge me’ argument must be the oldest (and lamest) comeback in the ‘What to do when somebody flames my blog’ book.
July 13, 2005 at 2:54 am
as good a reason as any
July 13, 2005 at 2:56 am
carrie, what can i say, i have a generous spirit
July 13, 2005 at 3:42 am
that is why this kind of ‘discussions’ will never go anywhere. at least it provides mental orgasm for some. c’est la vie, have some cheese.
July 13, 2005 at 8:25 am
carrie: maybe you need to quit your apparent addiction to this post as well as my blog. and stop commenting. you silly pig you. *whack whack*
me: you ah… different kettle of fish altogether.
mrbrown: why you always pop in here and say funny things one. oh yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG GUY!
suanie: i am getting an ‘oh oh oh oh oh i’m coming’ high everytime i read your comment.
July 13, 2005 at 8:56 am
and what kettle is that? i hope it’s salmon. i like salmon.
July 13, 2005 at 10:01 am
Carrie: honestly, if you don’t like the way mini writes, don’t bother commenting. I know i don’t. I’m writing this because you sound like a smart sensual blogger who knows her stuff not like this overated brat. So quit wasting your time and words over her. Or the rest of her blind legions of fanboys. That is all.
July 13, 2005 at 11:10 am
Minishorts,
Just keep at whatever you do as long as it hurts nobody. That includes yourself. Most of us are new in here too. I used to ask myself: “What if?” and then “What for?” and finally I just said, “What the heck!!!” and just continued to blog. Of course I’m interested to know if people read my blogs, or their response to whatever I write about. But then, (what the heck) I’m doing this for myself and my kids to emulate. If it helps or inspires others too I’ll be glad to know.
July 13, 2005 at 11:25 am
I spring-cleaned my blog in a panic-stricken frenzy a few weeks back when I reread my old posts and remembered belatedly that I do not want to burn bridges with anyone. And yesterday, I stumbled upon this arty in Mr Brown’s blog – WE DO NOT HIRE BLOGGERS
http://chronicle.com/jobs/2005/07/2005070801c.htm
***frowns*** Need to watch what rubbish spews forth from my trap now.
Or rant privately, like T-Boy suggested.
July 13, 2005 at 12:54 pm
i know your feeling. i’m already there. i use my real name, i have my photo up and everybody i know knows my blog… hence there is a certain caution when i blog. like you said, i have to think twice when i blog.
oh and also a reason why i don’t curse and sound raunchy.
July 13, 2005 at 12:58 pm
….
(re-reads blog entry)
Then what the heck are you talking about? Because you’re not making sense. If not having a private space isn’t your problem, what is? The worry that you’re not true to yourself?
July 13, 2005 at 6:26 pm
It’s been a while since I last commented. That does not mean I haven’t been reading. In fact, minishorts.net is the first place I go to whenever I manage to steal a few minutes out of work (like now
). Anyhow, great to know that things are going so well over here. 
Err … back to the topic. Having people we physically know coming by and reading our blogs can sometimes be quite a “worrisome” thing. But then, that’s when our site disclaimer comes into play right ? Hehe …
July 15, 2005 at 2:45 pm
Get a life everyone!