the answer to both is NOTHING. unfortunately.

yes i do and it sucks.To rub those friggin salt,fire,acid into my wounds, i caught them holding hand and kissing in the streets.

“He insisted that i should be with him” she said.even when the guy knew she had a bf(me) already.”i didnt say anything and i supposed he thought i agreed” she added.

bullshytes.

i went up to the guy, with all the hatred and anger i have, with those flashes of thoughts on how furtile these past couple of months must have been.how we spend those times together ended up in naught.I mustered my courage to see this stranger(asshole) straight into the eyes and said

“take good care of her.”

i dont want to pulish the whole story here,but trust me, when she aint yours,she aint.

my first gf, buckets of tears, and a hell of an emotional rollercoaster ride. its almost like a drama serial.But i’ve gotten over it already.shes aint meant to be mine i guess, though its been few years now, i have the bestest gf anyone could ever have currently, and her(my ex) now telling me that she regretted what she did and wanted a second chance.

after all these years.

peace.

just in case dat u might breakup someday.. the ex won’t b an idiot of trying not to give back the keys..

well i think i’ve been abit insane… i’ve gone thru mental, physical and finance torture.. somehow it’s hard for me to trust a guy again..

i can sometimes b nice to guys.. or b to them.. but most of the time.. i anti them.. i noe not all guys r bad but i just can’t help it..

1) do not borrow money to a bf.. wadever reasons it is.. it is easy to borrow but takes freakin long enuf to get the return.. + fees (continuous call) n mental torture… to get the money back

2) guys who hit ladies r not worth it… dey’re retards…

3) “promises r made to b broken” dat’s the most freakin irresponsible sentence dat i’ve heard…

4) losers r those who normally doesn’t hv a job.. thinks dat he can just b rich in a day by slackin continuously and getting financial help frm the parents..

5) guys who doesn’t give ladies space or doesn’t trust the gf.. is a no no.. no matter how muc i tried tolerating.. i couldn’t take it with constant checking and questioning…

i don’t know wad is love.. somehow i couldn’t experience anything sweet but just disaster…

That night was so unforgettable as everything was just perfect…our conversation, him admiring me, me looking at his perfect smile and tanned body. Needless to say, one thing led to another and we ended up doing it on the couch. We went at it for a few hours, but felt like the blink of an eye. We only stopped after we were both too exhausted, and ended up lying next to each other. That same night, he gave me the sweetest compliment when I teasingly spread while chatting and he saw my underwear beneath my skirt.

The porblem is..now he’s telling me that his family cannot find out that we’re together since they’ll never approve of him going out with a she-man, and since they dunno about his sexuality too. Help me, what should I do??

then he goes to take his shower.

i wait.

after his shower, he comes down. grinning very happy joy joy.

then he says, ‘eh i’m going out with tallboy to the cyber cafe?’

I stare at him. ‘HUH?’

‘don’t like this lah. tall boy is very lonely tonight.’

KNNCB… what the fuck. I’m also lonely ok. blardy hell.

Hey, ure really a go-get-it-gal! Can I be ur friend? I started a blog just very recently, all thanks to u…Ive no guts in telling ppl abt my life, and guess wat???!! U did get me going and started this whole blogging dingy! =)

Could you please have bigger font point size at your Blog or we might end having to buy a better reading glass.
Best Regards,
Roy