Anger is my muse
Everyone, I'd like you to go to this site and read this post here first. Then come back ok?
Right, if you're too lazy to read, never mind. In that post, Kyels writes about the two Saints called Patience and Tolerance. Its a bit deep, that post, but the gist is this: 'You got anger management or not? You can tolerate stupid people or not? You patient enough with people or not? THINK AND SEE…'
Obviously hoh, no need to tell also know adi lah, my answer required no thinking. BLARH I know myself too well… my readers know me better I think.
No I'm not patient.
No I'm not tolerate.
Yes I'm always angry at everything. I'm a walking timebomb, mosquito fly into my milo also I feel like throwing the mug against the wall.
It isn't that bad you know. I mean, the result of this neverending outburst of anger (I get angry at everything what to do, I'm a woman with raging hormones that have no where to go), is this blog.
IMPATIENCE IS GOOD… ANGER IS EXCELLENT… EVIL IS GOOD… IT MAKES YOU WANT TO SAY NONSENSE, IT MAKES YOU COME UP WITH A WHOLE SHITLOAD OF BULLSHIT.
So you see whenever I see an idiotic post by some stupidly self-righteous God-damning religious freak, when I read crap citing comparative religion, when I see blardyfools copying websites wholesale, when a troll visits my site and boils my blood, when some idiot writes a whole shit on how he loves God because he can go to heaven and everyone else will go to hell (please love God properly mind you, don't be so selfish can or not), when some WOMAN makes funny eyes at my boyfriend, when some wanker flashes me thinking I've never seen a cock in my life before and expecting me to scream AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH ( did I just say that? ), I feel angry…
… and you know what? THIS ANGER IS no no no not a good thing… at first. See, this anger makes me want to go out and shout STUPID WANKER GO GROW A COCK GO AND GET A LIFE GET A BOYFRIEND GO FUCK YOURSELF WITH A CUCUMBER or something… like that…
But I cannot say all those things in real life. I mean imagine lah if I did go out and say things like that. It would be SOOOOOOO EMBARASSING and KURANG AJAR, like never go to school liddat, right?
Fortunately, I can, however, BLOG it. Which sorta turns Anger, into my best friend, of course.
LOGIC: If not for anger, I will not have a muse! I will not be soooooooo energized with crap! I will not be able to rant so much! I will not be able to whack my head againt the computer and dream up nonsense, all the KNNCBs in my vocabulary will have nowhere to go… CAN YOU IMAGINE the atrocities? I will not have any use for my imagination. My brain will not be working. I won't dream up nonsense.
minishorts.net would not exist at all.
And the best thing about the blog is, because I have an outlet to channel all this atomic energy to, I get to look all nice, meek and polite and kind, and cute, and adorable, and a darling, and a sweetie in real life. Hehe. I go to the office also got ppl call me leng lui you know, say me very sweet.
HAHA… ISN'T THAT JUST REMARKABLE? ME… Sugar and spice and everything nice… hehehe… and everybody just thinks I'm a gem… sniff… so nice, right?
OK lah yes lah I do get angry in real life also, but at least I'm reduced to seething between tightly shut lips and glaring at people. Anything's better than going around like a mad siao-char-boh screaming 'SO STUPID LAH YOU KNNCB YOU NEVER GO SCHOOL AH!'
I wouldn't even look as if I went to primary school if I did all that!
So you know what? Anger is good. Being impatient makes me write like a raging tsunami. Its good for my career so yeah, thank goodness I'm one hot tempered chick.
BTW, Kyels is young and she writes a lot of thoughtful articles… best of all they're the perfect examples that I can use for my students who're in Form 4 and Form 5 right now. Parents and teachers might find Kyels a good blog to reference, if in any case you're going to introduce Journalling to the students. Her posts are structured, systematic and they remind me of SPM model essays. GOOD STUFF!
September 17th, 2005 at 1:51 am
Kyel is my blog friend
and anger makes you trap in the loop of life.
September 17th, 2005 at 2:07 am
First of all, it’s an honour that you plugged me into your latest entry. Thanks.
Being a hot tempered chick or an impatient person is not wrong because we all have our own traits. That is why all of us are unique in this world.
Of course I do have temper within me as well and yeah.. Can curse people also if I am not satisfied.. The usual.. KNNCCB..
But then again, I am usually cautious when I say something because words can hurt a person’s feeling badly and the worst thing is you cannot take it back.
Walking timebomb.. Haha. Wei.. Damn funny. LOL! Nice post.
Cheers!
September 17th, 2005 at 2:10 am
Life Feel,
You’re not done with the loop of life yet? Haha.
*faints*
September 17th, 2005 at 2:15 am
I am already out and now I am helping people like you to get out of it.
hehe
September 17th, 2005 at 2:17 am
errr children…wanna chat… go chat room and chat. don’t chat here… ok? this is a comments area… thank you.
September 17th, 2005 at 2:21 am
kyels and I kena scolding and being labeled as children.
*shrug*
September 17th, 2005 at 2:31 am
Hahahaha excellent post. I’ve been religiously reading your blog some one intro this to me several months ago. I must say i’m very entertained and laughed everytime i step my humble foot(eyes i mean) in here. Keep up the good work Minishorts
September 17th, 2005 at 2:42 am
I find the daily entries there thoughtful.
September 17th, 2005 at 2:43 am
Mmm, without her anger, minishorts wouldn’t be minishorts.
Since comments go here, your first sentence linked to:
“http://www.minishorts.net/and i like the way you make your convictions very clear…albeit in a non-religious manner.”
And as I was typing this I think you updated it to:
“ahttp://kyels.com/wordpress/?p=172″
Lose the ‘a’ yeah.
September 17th, 2005 at 2:52 am
I would say she cussed with a very distinctive style
September 17th, 2005 at 5:12 am
*shyly puts hand up*
Che-gu….
You’ve also written great posts powered by L-O-V-E, that all-conquering, environmentally friendly and ever-renewable natural resource.
That’s where your greatest strength comes from: that volatile mix of love (or passion) and anger.
Arr? I’m giving away trade secrets, you say?
*scrambles under allegedly kantoi-proof desk (AKPD) again*
September 17th, 2005 at 5:51 am
I get this perfectly. Negative emotions bring out the best blog fodder.
Mine is usually either frustration or sadness. I’m not really as sad as i used to be nowadays. The result?
My blog entries are kinda boring now.
Good post by the way. Very fun to read.
September 17th, 2005 at 6:58 am
(unrelated)
u mentioned to marcjitab that u don’t like being referred to as “they they they”
what’s a nicer way to phrase?
TIA.
September 17th, 2005 at 9:09 am
this is interesting.
randomly noting that your blogs are mostly about blogging/blogs/bloggers.
but anger is such an excellent thing to blog about.
September 17th, 2005 at 9:44 am
METAL: HAHAHA since *SOME PEOPLE* make me so angry, i think they deserve to know just how i feel too so i just type whatever that comes to mind lah…i wasn’t half thinking when i read THAT post… i think it gave me a pounding headache.
heroin: that’s because i think some people should go visit other blogs instead of my just blog. you know…. does it matter?
September 17th, 2005 at 10:39 am
Hey hey!
I do agree w you that blogs are one of outlets/avenues to vent out our anger…. in real life I suppose it’s much more mellowed down, even though we wanna RAM down the stupid car that goes zig zag on the road… bla bla bla…. ugh!
I notice sometimes mood affects my posts (dunno abt u la) and if angry… gone la… all the $^%£& will come out….
Good one!!! *haf yet to read kyels post on this… working on that later.. heh!*
Cheerssss Haffa guud weekend!!
September 17th, 2005 at 4:23 pm
Kyels.com is good
September 17th, 2005 at 6:30 pm
Well said, the first part of the post anyway. I hate the guts of those people who are all goodie goodie and with the TEEHEE-I-am-holier-than-thou look on their face. It makes me puke and wanted to stamp onto their faces.. okay maybe not as violent but something come close. What I mean is that most of the time, those bull crap written were really just some fake cheap shit dough that don’t reflect themselves. Crap why lie to oneself and others if it’s just a blog? If one doesn’t want to show their feeling inside, store it within and don’t let it out as some fake orgasm pretending to be happy.
’nuff said
September 17th, 2005 at 10:56 pm
*eyes blog entry warily from far away*
You are so dangerous.
September 17th, 2005 at 11:59 pm
Lainie: no lah. I’m really nice. Didn’t dinner just proved it?
anthraxxxx: apparently, many people think so.
nebo: i totally get what you mean.
September 19th, 2005 at 12:41 pm
There I was thinking there were three muses - Mneme (Memory), Aoide (Voice) and Melete (Practice) … actually, I think Emerson, Lake and Palmer had a song where they called one Clio (History) … hmmm … now there is ‘Anger’ to add to the muses! Sounds more like a missing dwarf.
Anyway, I think even if you were not so angry, there would still be a Minishorts.net … just would be different. Creative people always need an outlet, and (my personal opinion) is that even without a need to vent your anger, you would have eventually fallen into blogging.
I used to keep a special book for venting anger in during my seperation and divorce. It was full ofa lot of things I can’t repeat (lot’s of ‘F’ words etc), but it kept the anger and emotive angst from ruining my Diary at the time.
I prefer to aim my anger at the person who caused or is causing it! (Not that I am accusing anyone else here of not doing that.) I do know that a lot of people don’t though, and when angry at one person, they are angry at the world.
Sometimes, I have bitten my tongue in situations (and followed Kyles ‘Patience’ path), and found that my anger was curbed, because in the end a satisfactory ending was the outcome.
Proper use of ‘Anger’ and ‘Patience’ etc is a matter of chosing your battles too. It’s good to have somewhere to vent your anger (or to meditate or do yoga to contain it). In the end, both are tools to be weilded wisely (if and when needed). [And with Angry, it is more a matter of 'IF'].