just minishorts.

There're some problems regarding my hosting, which explains the volatile nature of this blog recently. The site is hard to access, and sometimes, it is difficult for me to log in and post stuff, and it's difficult for guestbloggers and my administrators to do the same too.

It's all very well that it's nearing the end of the year, and I'm supposed to have 'rejuvenated' so to speak. While I have given up on the NaNoWriMo novel because I'm too lazy to finish it I can't concentrate on handling too many lesson topics at the same time while I'm writing a novel, MiniNanos will remain a place for me to write about exploitations into the novel (which I will return too when this project ends), and how work and external factors affect me in the ambition pursuit.

I'm too old to have ambitions really. Yesterday, I walked out of the gym, and a five year old called me 'Auntie, where is the lift,' and I tried not to laugh at myself when I took her to the lift and brought her to her place (goodness, how can you let five year olds wander around a shopping centre alone!)I could choose to say that being dressed in office wear makes me look more mature, but then again, I've already breached 25, and sheesh, I am older, no matter how much I delude myself (and put up the mask). There are different problems I have to face now, questions relating to relationships, family, friends, and the reunions, oh the reunions… and work of course, work and money, they come hand in hand.

I haven't quite been able to look at my situations from all sides of the coin, but whatever. As the mighty Zeus says, time to move on… and yet not give a damn at the same time. The absence was good, it was necessary so that I was able to separate blog from person, blogger from person, reality from surreality. It has always been like that, aloof, separate, and all of these–unimportant. And I have the bloggers to thank, the ones who helped me maintain the site while I tried to discover myself YET again: FA, Elaine, Viewtru, the others, and especially Vincent, who took in the bulk of content managing (regardless of spiteful comments), my wordpress administrator Edrei of course, who helps to ensure the site stays up and running…

I don't see myself coming full circle anytime soon, but I'm willing to attempt to try to give up on goals and focus on living in the present instead. Maybe, like I said, the server problems, hosting issues, and high maintenance fees are telling me something. And it's December soon. I'll be back soon, a little different, but definitely the same.

So maybe tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, you won't be able to see anything new, or you won't be able to surf around, or you won't be able to post comments. Ah. I don't have the time to bother about these things yet. I'll see you in a bit when December falls upon us, and in the meantime, thank you for paying me a visit.

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