It’s the mystery that makes me me
I snagged this line off Adeline Gong's blog, (that you ought to read, because she writes wonderfully inquisitive pieces, that make you nod your head and say, 'It's like that for me too, sometimes.')
"When I read your blog, I feel like I'm looking inside your brain."
- Christle Clare Tan
I'm not sure if you feel that way when you read minishorts.net, but I suppose when people complain I get too cryptic, its calming because at least, I know that the shields I build around myself are working better than I hoped they would. People, on the general, have very strange tendencies to view others from their own benchmarks, and in the process, they fail to realize that individuals are unfathomable because we're all different, nothing wrong with that.
It's like how some of the silent visitors have been boggled by these little things I jot down in this place, for purposes which only I (and the few friends and readers I have chosen to confide in), will understand… and how the frustrated ones end up banging against the light metal bars that I have surrounded the insides of the events that have brought about these jottings. They lament and accuse, 'If you wanna say something, say it properly, don't make us guess like this.'
I didn't intend to make you guess, it's just I don't intend to let you know. You thought you know me, you thought you have a right to me, but too bad. I am ONLY A BLOG, I AM NOT A PERSON. WHEN YOU READ THIS, it isn't Claire speaking to you, it's the side of Claire who wants to speak to you, and today she's transmitting the sort of knowledge about her that she allows you to look into.
And the rest, I'm sorry, you'll just have to side guess. And if you can't guess, come on, stop pulling your hairs. That's not good for your health you know. And for God's sake, get on with your life and stop begging me for the information. Tsk, tsk.
Oh yeah, Suresh, I AM NOT GETTING MARRIED LAH. I have the tendency to get all lovey-dovey when something mushy happens in my life, and the current thing… well it's NOT mushy at all. It's just a fresh change, but I can't exactly reveal it yet because I've got some loose ends to tie up. In due time, in due time.
Meanwhile, life goes on.
March 26th, 2006 at 4:41 pm
imagining people to be curious about you again? who in his rite mind is interested in a rambling, uncontrollably salivating, spotty, shapeless chipmunk like you? actually maybe got a bit, cause you’re like a trainwreck! your perasan tendency is seriously getting out of control.
March 26th, 2006 at 5:12 pm
Harsh. Actually, I don’t know, I would be rather interested in a rambling, uncontrollably, salivating, spotty, shapeless chipmunk if it’s literal. Ah, I still remember when I was but a child, what a fan I was of Chip and Dale’s Rescue Rangers, I always thought that Gadget was kinda hot, and Chip and Dale were lucky bastards to have her as their colleague, since all they’ve ever done were to torment poor Donald Duck, those amoral cunts.
March 26th, 2006 at 8:15 pm
Well… who cares what the world says….
In life, that is too many things to live for and live up to.
Being ourselve is just part of being free.
This is your blog, and is good only it’s part of you. For that… all the reader have to live with
March 26th, 2006 at 10:03 pm
Hi mshots:
I am also cryptic sumtimes, to sum, most times, to others, not at all.
I enjoy teasing my ER (which stands for EsteemedReaders),
but if some readers are baffled, it’s okay, becosi uit’s meant to be that way.
The ones who dare arsk Qs, and they get an asnwer, 1/2 baked or not.
So cheers to thy crytic rites, which I don’t find c — cynical maybe. Wella, I offer thee a tehtarik, mayhaps you’ll speak less tongue-in-chic, which I like, really. If you don’t believe, ask one helenoftroy, she’ll desTROY me for targeting her! wella, that’s just me.:) G’Dae! It’s sundae, I feel like spreading some proFUNity!
March 27th, 2006 at 9:10 am
…and on and on and on…and over to my blog once every blue moon.
March 27th, 2006 at 11:31 am
sometimes reading your blog is like watching desperate housewives.
How I hate it when the season ends with an episode that left you hanging there.. and keep on guessing what the hell is going on… XD
March 27th, 2006 at 1:22 pm
lol..MS…I got a front page mention…wow…
Anyway..I knew it was a long shot…but anyway..just said it out aloud.
But no matter what Congratulations. It’s good to be happy.
P.S: Will you be cryptic when you do tie the knot too? Ok…ok….just can’t resist asking the question. Enjoy and be happy!
March 27th, 2006 at 11:38 pm
Wow.. u plugged AGong’s blog?
I’ll let her know.
March 28th, 2006 at 3:30 pm
Strange as it may sound, I can’t help to agree that maybe you’re a bit self centered. But then it’s your blog so I guess you can be self centred, but nevertheless it’s a bit or a turn-off to read such posts.
You seem to be overly focused on differentiating the blog and your actual self. And also that you want to have an air of mystery for your real self.
“but I suppose when people complain I get too cryptic, its calming because at least, I know that the shields I build around myself are working better than I hoped they would”
Just my opinion.
March 28th, 2006 at 5:07 pm
curiosity: you’ve just described the perfect way to put it. if i may oblige, a huge purpose of minishorts.net is to discover myself–i’ve said it’s a place for me to experiment with ideas. it was never about turning something in potential readers on. if it has to turn readers like you off, then so be it, or some say ‘better be it’.
the outcome of minishorts.net is for the people i care and cherish to enjoy or deplore, the people who love me tell me what they think and we discuss issues within our circles. as bloggers, we learn from these self-indulging, public-exposing moments, and the difference between you and me is, i have a face, and a name, and the ability to look at the pimples on my face and pop them in public. you can hardly say the same for yourself.
i haven’t been so provocative towards readers in a long time. i think today’s ‘work’ was overtly tiresome.
March 30th, 2006 at 2:57 pm
You’re assuming that I don’t have a blog?
But I do…. so I also have a face, and a name, and the ability to look at the pimples on face and pop them in public. And honestly, a lot of pimples as well…
But you have a good point, the intention of a blog, or rather, of this blog is not to turn on/off its readers.