just minishorts.

I snagged this line off Adeline Gong's blog, (that you ought to read, because she writes wonderfully inquisitive pieces, that make you nod your head and say, 'It's like that for me too, sometimes.')

"When I read your blog, I feel like I'm looking inside your brain."
- Christle Clare Tan

I'm not sure if you feel that way when you read minishorts.net, but I suppose when people complain I get too cryptic, its calming because at least, I know that the shields I build around myself are working better than I hoped they would. People, on the general, have very strange tendencies to view others from their own benchmarks, and in the process, they fail to realize that individuals are unfathomable because we're all different, nothing wrong with that.

It's like how some of the silent visitors have been boggled by these little things I jot down in this place, for purposes which only I (and the few friends and readers I have chosen to confide in), will understand… and how the frustrated ones end up banging against the light metal bars that I have surrounded the insides of the events that have brought about these jottings. They lament and accuse, 'If you wanna say something, say it properly, don't make us guess like this.'

I didn't intend to make you guess, it's just I don't intend to let you know. You thought you know me, you thought you have a right to me, but too bad. I am ONLY A BLOG, I AM NOT A PERSON. WHEN YOU READ THIS, it isn't Claire speaking to you, it's the side of Claire who wants to speak to you, and today she's transmitting the sort of knowledge about her that she allows you to look into.

And the rest, I'm sorry, you'll just have to side guess. And if you can't guess, come on, stop pulling your hairs. That's not good for your health you know. And for God's sake, get on with your life and stop begging me for the information. Tsk, tsk.

Oh yeah, Suresh, I AM NOT GETTING MARRIED LAH. I have the tendency to get all lovey-dovey when something mushy happens in my life, and the current thing… well it's NOT mushy at all. It's just a fresh change, but I can't exactly reveal it yet because I've got some loose ends to tie up. In due time, in due time.

Meanwhile, life goes on.

So that I'll always remember.

'I've been electrified.'

Literally.

Apparently I have been reduced to a buzzword.

So, I was talking to Vince yesterday, about the hilarious absurdity of life, how we cross the paths of strangers without even realizing we've crossed them–oh, how we've crossed them–and then out of nowhere suddenly some totally unheard of person falls out of the sky and pays homage to your greatness in all the wrong areas.

'I'm so awesome.'

That's how Vincent usually responds. I would like to say things like that, but unfortunately, that's just NOT me. I'll go, 'What the fuck? Who the fuck? Did I? I can't recall.'

Yes, yes, you're right, you're a genius, you know everything about me my life my future. I'm evil like that, I'm doomed to hell, I'll face the music bla bla bla. What else is new?

Actually I was distracted by my new gadget. I MANAGED TO INSTALL ZLAUNCHER on my palm and it's smokin' hot! However I've been trying and trying to get mobipocket reader to work on the thing but it just won't install. The stupid installation program sucks. Help!

The other new thing will be sort-of-confirmed today. I've told a few people already, so those of you who know, thanks for all the well-wishes. I REALLY HOPE THAT I PULL THROUGH WITH MY REQUESTS.

Right now it's all up to the big guy up there. Thanks for looking over my shoulder, God. You're the greatest!

From Edrei, this meme is far too personal for my liking, so please don't mind the answers.

How many schools did I go to?
Two. Primary and Secondary.

Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Last minute hero.

Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
A little bit of both, depending on which teacher.

What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
School was so long ago, I can't really recall.

Three subjects I enjoyed.
Biology, Art and Living Skills. The last because we get to play chefs every once in a while.

Three teachers that inspired me.
I don't want to name names least someone accuses me of favouritism. But if you taught me Biology in Form 4, Additional Mathematics in Forms 4 & 5, and Bahasa Malaysia in Form 1, you stood out!

Don't mind me, I'm a little bit busy okay, I'll tell what happened in a week, I PROMISE!!

Suddenly it's like a veil has fallen across the entire world, and all that remain are my eyes, the veil, and what's beyond the veil. It is basically, very personal.

So what happened? Seriously, I can hardly believe it, HOWEVER, right now I'm actually trying to plod along while waiting for the final result–and of course I'm trying to maintain a good balance between being optimistic and bracing for the worst.

Oh I also bought the Palm T|X for a steal. He he. Does anyone have any discounts on SD cards? I'm thinking of getting a 512 MB card, or if the price is right, I'll get adventurous and go for the 1GB one, but just how much do I have to ready first?

I'm feeling so sleepy here… I'm supposed to be doing work, but instructions are sparse and I'm not really that motivated right now. That is, I am motivated, but I suspect these motivations are for the wrong reasons.

I can't wait till tomorrow.

Can't seem to install the Palm Desktop software on my PC. Does anyone have an extra installation CD for me to test it out? It works fine on my office comp, which is a Win98 model. The one at home runs on Win XP Professional.