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I was like this a while back. The evidence is telling.

I Shall Bring Sunny Days

"You're like the sky,"
You told me,
Just days before you broke me.
"Like bright rays of sunlight
Shining through my gloomy days;
Like wet tropical afternoons
That cool down the humid heat;
The sky,
That gets angry and booms
Thunderous crashes after warning lightening flashes;
You're what makes the stars twinkle
In the endless infinite horizons
Of the beautiful velvety night sky."

Just days before you broke me,
You said, so many,
Such wonderful words;
Yes, I believed in them.
Don't you see?
This is why, I cannot,
Cannot believe that you don't love me
Not even that little bit.
If you don't love me
How can you tell me
Such beautiful things about me?
All I know of this world
Is wise men don't tell flowery lies
I believe,
Or want to believe
That you're wise,
And you don't lie.

Which is why
When I remember
How you said,
"You're my sky,"
I know this, this much,
That I must have faith
That really,
You never lied,
I'm really your beautiful sky.
My thunders just chased you away,
So now I have to stop raining
So that my sunny rays
Can welcome you again.

From the old blogspot days, over three years ago. THREE YEARS.

I cannot believe that I've been around for such a long time. But never mind that. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I WROTE THAT. OMG OMG OMG. WHAT WAS I THINKING?

Now you see why it is very unhealthy to let yourself be bogged down by the past? But anyway, records are good, just to keep oneself in check. And sheesh, I still cannot believe I wrote that.

Like most little girls growing up, my mom gave me a name for my private part, that secret place where nobody could ever see or touch. I'm not sure what you girls called yours, but in my family, we called it the 'pea-pea'. As the girls in the family grew up (the cousins, and what not), the word became a not-so-private one… after all, Mum had over 10 brothers and sisters, and the number of cousins in the family was well over 40 peeps.

So you could hear the word being shouted across the halls, in those days, when I was younger. At five, I was staying with my grandmother while Mum worked overseas, so my childhood was mostly spent running around the kampung bungalow that was my grandmother's house, with the rest of the cousins. Every day at around 5, (my afternoon bath time), my aunt would remind me to take the bath, and without fail, she'd say, 'Remember to wash your pea pea.'

You know, as kids we didn't really bother about each other's bodies. In my generation of cousins, there were about 4 of us, all girls, all of the same age. Afternoon mandis were usually done together, to save space, and save time. And then I had a younger cousin brother, of around three at the time I was about five, and his sister was about four (a year younger, I think). We had stripped down to our knickers, and the poor boy's elder sister seemed eager to reveal an open secret to the rest of the world.

'Wait wait you must see something,' squealed the little girl as her mother took off her younger brother's clothes. And then the shields were off, and she was smiling away, 'Look! Look! Didi has got something growing out of his pea-pea, like little bird-bird like that. SEE SEE, his pea-pea is different from mine!'

I recall this distinctly, because now I know what the adults were laughing at.

Imagine going to school one day and finding out that there is a word 'pipi' in the Malay language, and it refers to the cheeks. Or imagine, growing up a few more years later, to find out in books, that there is indeed a pea hidden inside our bodies, but some girls spend their lifetime searching for the elusive pea without ever succeeding.

Others discuss about peas in secret little corners, and form secretive pacts over the weekends to talk about peas. Others.

Jolene
Finicky Feline
Barffie
Mei
Rosalind
Scarlett
Sassyjan
Janedoe
Potato
Lip
Mrs Budak

But really, I'm more interested in this: you know as kids, we all had names for our secret precious parts, cutesy little names. If mine was called the pea-pea, what did you call yours?

… and I AM STILL WORKING.

Shucks.

How'd you think I'm feeling?

GAH!

We're talking issues pertaining the tariff hikes in minishorts.net, surprise surprise, even though I've personally taken a vow not to touch on political / terribly important issues such as petrol price increase or inflation rates and economic analysts' feedback, I'm going to talking about political methods by our opposition parties, immediately after the tariff announcement.

I read in the papers today (Sin Chew, to be exact), that some DAP Youth Leader is planning to host a peaceful demonstration in Pantai Remis come June 3rd, and to call upon Dato' Seri Dr Lim Keng Yaik to reconsider the hikes, and to retract the ministry's statement. (Link to said article here).

You know the thing about being a part of the Rakyat, and having the right to make decisions and to vote to my choice of government is this: you get to sit in a corner and observe the behavior of politicians and people-representatives, and then after a few years you get to exercise your rights and decide. Now this leaves our leaders in a delicate situation. They've got to behave carefully. More importantly, they've got to make sure they don't come up with silly reactions and projects in their quest to prove to the rakyat that they're worthy of the votes they want.

It is awesomely disturbing to know that left-wingers like to opt for 'peaceful' demonstrations, and 'pickets' and 'memorandums' to the powers-that-be. Surely we don't want to believe that the opposition parties are mere opportunists who're always at the corners of their seats waiting for major national announcements that will allow them the time and place to 'prove their mantle', right? And if their mantle is merely the function to organize pickets and peaceful demonstrations to call upon governments in rule to retract a decision… I'm definitely not going to be convinced that this aspiring MP will be able to perform if he gets voted into office, you know?

I mean to me right now this just seems to be so very typical of opposition leaders. Jumping on the opportunity to make an impression, by saying, 'Hey come let's go and have a peaceful demonstration and give the minister a piece of my mind,' is just so expected, you know what I mean?

It happened for the petrol hikes also, we all recall that, and the demonstrations went on for several Fridays. Ada kesan ke? Every time there's some uproar from a section of the public, it seems that there's definitely some opposition leader there involved in the organizing of yet another peaceful demonstration. And in this case, we all know that everytime the price of something goes up, protests are INEVITABLE. Dah-lah expected it.

As for me, of course the price is unreasonable, but I've got to live with it anyway. To me, every bloody thing in this world is damn expensive lah, lagi best kalau everything is free. If prices were reasonable all the time, you wouldn't see the attraction in Sales and Discounts right? But if you're going to ask me to take my time off to join in a peaceful protest, I'll tell you this, I've got more important things to do, like going to work to ensure that I'll be sufficiently enabled to pay for the increase in living costs.

This 'method' of getting the rakyat's support has GOT to be more creative, and you know, exhibit some kind of difference. What I might appreciate is my MP to come up with some pointers as to how we could ensure that 'reasonable' is a living fact, or measures to recommend to the parties involved in order that the so-called negative backlash from the hikes may be dampened. Something that will make me stand up and be proud to scream out loud, 'Eh yang tu MP saya!'

A news column showing opposition leaders displaying prepared banners and intentions to organize a peaceful protest? Come on.