Recent discoveries.
Maybe I'm slow to learn, and I ought to have seen these coming from a mile away, but I've just seemed to realize all these. That you do get more cynical as you grow older. You get more tired easily, and you start to realize time really is precious. You can sit at a corner of Coffee Bean with a best girlfriend and talk about crushes you've had in the past, and you laugh about the stupidity of the things you used to do as a gullible school girl, and suddenly you realize the value of RM10 and that it really isn't that much and coffee bean is expensive. You start to realize you've turned more reflective lately, and a slight cautiousness has crept into the words you choose to let out of your mouth. You're more precarious now, not that it's a good thing, and you really miss the times where you used to be carefree, and was applauded for being outspoken.
A few months down the road, you find that being outspoken becomes a little bit more difficult than it used to be, and you have to try just to say what you want to say, because everything, everything gets filtered down now. And you do it so naturally because it has become internalized, so now while life goes on at breakneck speed, your mind starts to pace itself in a cha-cha step. Think, Think, Talk talk talk, Think, Think, talk talk talk. And you laugh over Flat Whites and say, 'I agree with you.'
The truth is, sometimes I lose the topic, I forget what we were laughing about, but I try to make it a great disguise, I try to refine that art of seeming as if I understand.
Occasionally you remind yourself that you need to stop, smell the roses, but nowadays, with technology and practicality, you thank the geniuses behind Crabtree and Evelyn who make Rose-scented Hand Creams. Great for the times in the office when you need to rehydrate your skins from the air conditioning. It's called killing two birds with one stone, you stop to moisturize your hands, and you smell the roses at the same time!
And then you remember, that all these is going to take up years and years of your life as you walk towards the great 55, and retirement seems so far away.
September 27th, 2006 at 4:27 pm
When ppl grow older they are getting more fragile/sensitive from the words/says around them, therefore we are expect to grow not only physically but mentally also. We are required to think before we speak out and this called ‘Intelligent Outspoken’ compared to the past which is only ‘Outspoken’.