I've just decided on milestones to achieve when I reach 55.

1. I wanna own a 1 acre land, probably use 1/3 of the land to build a nice little cottage-like house, and the remaining 2/3 will have a nice garden with one or two fruit trees on it.
2. Probably buy myself a Savanna FC, which would be over 40 years old by then. Hopefully they'll still be having some usable parts for the car, otherwise I hope to be rich enough to custom manufacture whatever replaceables I'll need to put into the car.
3. One of my kids (if I do have kids) would be ready to take over my company then (if I do manage to start my own company).
4. Would have made a name for myself in the corporate sector, hopefully. You know? Just the name 'Claire Khoo' would make people go, 'Ooooh…' that kind of thing. In a good way of course. Oh I'll probably get people who'll go, 'That bitch', but whatever. Success invites haters.
5. Still be working. I've thought about it, I'll probably retire from hecticdom, but I'll still be earning some cash off royalties or maybe my company would have been self-sufficient enough to run by itself.
6. Significantly told off religious bigots in such a big way, people would recognize me for being a major pro-interreligious understanding activist. (I actually see this happening, I'm feeling more and more strongly about the need to BE TOLERANT of each other each day).
7. In doing (6) would probably be notorious in Heaven as a 'criminal not to allow past the Pearly Gates' by then… hence resulting in me having to live with the fact that after death I'd probably be roaming the earth as a lost soul.
8. Which is fine, as long as I do whatever God calls me to do when the time comes for it. Heaven or Hell? It doesn't matter. I live for His pleasure, not because I want to go to Heaven. There is a difference, you know?

I also noticed that recently when I rant and think to myself, I always stray off to wonder what God really wants for me. But yeah, I'm saying it here. I'm doing it all because I believe there's a purpose here on Earth that He wants me to fulfill, and it all fits together. But what differentiates me from you, my dear friend, is the fact that I'm not aiming for a place beside His throne. I'm just doing it because I believe it's what He requires me to do, not because I want to enter his Kingdom one day.

I keep thinking about retirement lately. Is this a sign of fatigue?