Isn’t it funny? This feeling inside…
Its a silent trembling each time I hear the words being spoken, and then I wonder why is it that resentment seems to creep into my heart.
It's the knowledge that while you keep saying 'I don't care if people bother about me or not,' and actually feel as if you mean it, but when you keep looking for caring words from the person who claims to love you, but get nothing in return… then you start to wonder.
Why am I so weak?
I don't like being weak. I want to be strong. It's been such a long wait, and it's finally here, I should be rejoicing… and hey, what was I expecting? I meant it when I said it didn't matter.
…
But I guess, it matters after all. So when the mirror came up before me, why was I crying? I said it didn't matter, but right now, those feelings are roaring back at me. Denial, my dear girl, it's denial that has placed you here, and so, now, what are you going to do about it?
August 28th, 2007 at 10:12 am
It’s the place where we wish we were at, we dream of being able to not care if people bother about us or not
Because we are proud. And what a haughty place to be, that place 
It would be scary though, if we really did become capable of feeling that way. Because we would be against our nature. We are social animals. We like to be liked and cared about & for! So congratulations, girl - you are human!
August 28th, 2007 at 10:14 am
I mean it means you are a healthy human animal
August 31st, 2007 at 10:55 pm
i was already crying because of my own problems and it just so happened that i stumbled across ur blog. u’ve typed what was in my heart.