just minishorts.

You know it's interesting how people tend to grow into the shoes that they're given to wear… so it's true, that old saying about you'll always be able to handle whatever given situation you're in.

Like how I used to believe that I would never want to get married? Or way back when I was just 10 I told my friends that boys suck and I'll never want to kiss one?

So right now ha ha, I'm engaged and getting ready to get married soon, and there's the scary thought of what's it like giving birth coming into my head already. Eric says he wants to have babies in 2009… so its a crazy journey going into that part of the analysing, but being the kind of MM-queen I am, I can't help it, it's natural I just zone off into areas of my life not meant for thinking about!

So there's the questions - What's sex like? What's sex going to be like? How's my conversations with my mom going to be when it's open that I'm now having sex with Eric? As it is she is already being awkwardly open with her conversations and the types of food she's boiling for me. Every month, for example, I take pak-cham like every good Chinese girl does, and previously it was for health reasons, for beautiful skin, to clear pimples bla bla. Now, Mom says, 'It's to protect your uterus, to make sure you're okay…'

Just the other day I was complaining about how bitter the Pak Cham she made was and she said, 'Well you better drink it, because looking at Eric, I think you better nourish yourself more so that you've got energy… you know when husbands come home and the wife's not in the mood, it's not so good for the marriage. You don't want Eric to run outside for his needs right?'

'Errrr Mom…'

'Eh this kind of talk MUST talk one okay… so that you know why you're drinking that stuff… so DRINK.'

So anyway, that's my Mom for you. Already even Eric's aunt is being like this to me. Like two nights ago we went out for supper together, and then we were talking about naked women and naked men… and Eric's aunt was teasing him about being able to see me naked…

Eric went, 'I have the rest of my life to see her naked.'

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The kind of conversations we have these days. I am NOT into talking about my impending sex life in the public! NOT NOT.

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Wait, I think I just did.