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The closest of the closest know me well enough - I don't believe in superficial shoulders for leaning on. You act like an idiot, I'll call you an idiot. You fuck yourself up, and if the holier-than-thou in me feels you need some slapping, I'll do it. Whatever it takes, I'll do it. I don't believe in surface level contributions to a relationship - because it's a waste of my time, and I don't like wasting time. So I say something sharp and caustic, that's what I have to give, and people who know me they know, I am not one person who has a storage of hugs to give away. I'm that person you come to when you know you need a big slap in the face, just to wake you up, someone who's there to call a spade a spade, just when you need it. I know you'll have plenty of those around you to give you hugs and call you darling, but I'm just not that.

But for some reason, I'm really lousy with telling my subordinates just what they need to build up on their competencies. Could this be because I just don't care enough about them to put my relationship with them at stake? Knowing that I need to do something and doing what I need to do, there's that struggle there all the time… it's always there.

But I've got a little less than three months left to make a significant change.

This is my take:

IF you are a celebrity, then fucking admit it. Coming out and saying something as inmature as 'btw, i have never ever regarded or refered to myself as a celebrity' is insanely stupid, worse if you're been exactly that, a celebrity, for the past four years. Sinful if everything you've done, everything you've planned and designed in the past 3? 4? years was to head you to become more and more successful as a celebrity.

Its as bad as Amber Chia not being able to handle the sticks and stones that comes with being a celebrity model and gasping, 'But I've never seen myself as being a model before.'

As bad as Pak Lah coming out in the open and saying, 'I HAVE NEVER CONSIDERED MYSELF AS THE PRIME MINISTER OF MALAYSIA.'

As terrible as Anwar Ibrahim getting all that flack about sodomy and the scandals that come with his battle, and then blurting out, 'You know I have never ever regarded myself or never dreamt of being the prime minister of Malaysia.'

Denying you are a celebrity, when you are OBVIOUSLY a celebrity, its just a bloody insult to your fanboys, your readers, your agents, the people who pay you. Its' NOT even halfway near humble. It's noobish behaviour and its stupidly wimpy.