Shifting positions
The closest of the closest know me well enough - I don't believe in superficial shoulders for leaning on. You act like an idiot, I'll call you an idiot. You fuck yourself up, and if the holier-than-thou in me feels you need some slapping, I'll do it. Whatever it takes, I'll do it. I don't believe in surface level contributions to a relationship - because it's a waste of my time, and I don't like wasting time. So I say something sharp and caustic, that's what I have to give, and people who know me they know, I am not one person who has a storage of hugs to give away. I'm that person you come to when you know you need a big slap in the face, just to wake you up, someone who's there to call a spade a spade, just when you need it. I know you'll have plenty of those around you to give you hugs and call you darling, but I'm just not that.
But for some reason, I'm really lousy with telling my subordinates just what they need to build up on their competencies. Could this be because I just don't care enough about them to put my relationship with them at stake? Knowing that I need to do something and doing what I need to do, there's that struggle there all the time… it's always there.
But I've got a little less than three months left to make a significant change.
August 7th, 2008 at 2:31 pm
Given that I’m one of your oldest friends here. I know that to be true. You were never a “yes person” and when we piss each other odd because we see things differently we will. Doesn’t stop us from being friends. Just means we give each other exactly what we need when we need it. Why would anyone want differently?