I’m a cup of poison
To be honest, I hate this need to justify my actions. I know the rationale, you can't define another person's experiences of you, and I can't define or tell you exactly why I do what I do, you will decide for yourself, and best of all, you will judge based on what your worldview tells you what people are like - just like how I formulate MY opinions on people (friends included), totally, completely, based on what my moral compass tells me how things should be like.
And there's me. Ms know-it-all, Ms I-have-an-opinion, Ms I'll-be-damned-if-I-don't-tell-you-just-how-you-should-behave. That's me. Whoever you are, people I know, people I don't know, I will have an opinion about you, and if I have the opportunities to reach out to you, I will tell you just what I think about you, about your actions, about what you do means to me. I can either tell it to you straight, or if I think its just pointless to engage you one-on-one (because I am uninterested in argumentative conversations), I will say it, somewhere. And sometimes, I say it here.
Whether you get it or not, that has nothing to do with me, I do not exist to tell you that my advice is God-sent and you should take it. It's just another take on things, and I say it here in my space because to me, that is where it will end. And it is for you to take it if you see it, or to leave it, either that, or you can completely miss the point, and I won't care either.
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But apparently, according to the recent feedback I've received, apparently, I cannot have an opinion. Not even in my own space. Apparently, if I have an opinion, I have to tell it to that person in person, if I have the guts. Apparently, if I have an opinion that is harsh, unkind, and uncaring, I'm a hypocrite, and I am more of an enemy than of a friend. Apparently, if I have an opinion about someone who in my opinion is famous, I am 'JEALOUS'.
So you know what I think? You guys have ridiculous logics. For fucks sake it's not like I went to some doctor to verify that my opinions are truly just. Cheh, I'm just another no-brainer down the road who has a position on certain matters, and you know that, I decided because I'm not interested in having people concur with me, I will just blog about it in my blog lah.
But apparently, I am a bitch anyway. So if I engage and argue with you I'm a bitch. If I talk to myself here, I'm a bitch. I wanna to write about it, I'm a bitch. I don't wanna write about it, I'm also a bitch (because there are people who will say crap like 'I wonder what she thinks of it'. I don't bother about things, I'm a bitch. I'm connected to a bitch, I'm a bitch. Crap concept I tell you.
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I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN AN OPINIONATED MIS-ALIGNED, CONFUSED PRICK, or to some people, I've always been that person who will have an opinion that makes sense and sounds reasonable. I'm either your cup of tea, or I'm your cup of poison. You don't like poison, don't take it. You can bitch about the poison in your own space, but if you come near the poison and keep scolding the poison, the cup of poison is not going to turn into sweet nectar anytime soon.
You've had it your way, I'll have it mine. We're even. If you have a problem with that, my response is: okay. It doesn't mean I'll do something to react to you. If I react, its a reaction. If I don't react, its a reaction as well, and my reaction might not be in your favour. If my reaction doesn't please you and you feel upset about it, make a choice and don't come near this cup of poison anymore lah.
But btw, feel very free to go bitch about how my hypocrisy irks you. Just don't expect me to turn into some saintly unhypocritical Goddess anytime soon.
August 8th, 2008 at 10:58 am
Just thought that you’ll like to hear from your readers on how you come across in your blog sometimes. But if your attitude towards this is the typical ‘this is my blog, and i can bitch whatever i want on my blog’, then my comment on your previous post is probably not justified. Perhaps you can disable comments the next time you’re in an ‘opinionated’ mood, then at least your readers won’t/can’t share any thoughts on your opinions or otherwise. Have a good weekend then, fellow FGA-er ! (that’s what i heard, have not seen you in the flesh, i’ve not attended church for a long long time and even if i did, perhaps we attend different services.
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I don’t go to FGA lah. I adi said many times in this blog where I go lah, duh.
August 8th, 2008 at 2:36 pm
I guess the trouble is that people don’t expect you to be that honest and they just get thoroughly shocked by it.
August 8th, 2008 at 4:07 pm
perhaps a little bit of modesty would suffice?
if this is meant to justify bad behaviour, ur not a kid anymore..
if this is meant to justify slander, were not god and cant judge u..
if this means ur off the hook for everything u say, ur conscious will get u..
be a real person and eat humble pie once in a while..
as spidey said, with great powers,…
I am not a real person, and I have never known what humble pie tasted like. So I dunno how to be humble. YOu seem like a smart and clever person. Can you teach me? Pretty Please?
now u knoe how it feels under pressure of public opinion
Yah lor. Damn it hurts. Sniff - please hug me.
August 8th, 2008 at 4:27 pm
Oh alright. My mistake then. Cause i remember someone asking me which church i go to and i said FGA and then came the remark, that’s the church the ‘minishorts.net blogger’ attend also. Guess that got stuck in my mind.
Ok, now only I know I go to FGA. -_-” I used to go to FGA but I don’t anymore. Too big for small fry like me.
August 8th, 2008 at 5:23 pm
“Apparently, if I have an opinion about someone who in my opinion is famous, I am ‘JEALOUS’.”
Wait a minute… That’s not true?
I have many many many many many unflattering opinions of you which you said could only stem from my deep-rooted jealousy of your oily face, bad fashion sense, good-looking fiance and your fame and fortune.
so confusing.
“but if you come near the poison and keep scolding the poison, the cup of poison is not going to turn into sweet nectar anytime soon.”
yeah but the poison is just so easily riled up and tries to dig up dirt on people and is just so sweetly entertaining when she’s acting up.
Hi Justine, been a long long time, it’s so easy to attract you into this site, just emo a bit and you’ll be back! HAHHAA I’m glad I made your day too! So how’s life as a copywriter? I thought I saw your name in ADOI mag the other time. Justine Lee, with Bates, that’s you right?
August 9th, 2008 at 1:58 am
i’m sorry, claire. you’re just too transparent. if you’re hoping that i’ll be chagrined by the fact that you know where i work, frankly i don’t give a fuck. i’m a copywriter, not a journalist and not a pr rep dissing ytl and francis yeo. (btw, i did wrote that ADOI writeup.)
a thousand ‘thank yous’ for making my day. i love seeing you make shitty comments about the man whose dick you were so dying to know about. how awesome.
i don’t by any stretch of the imagination love kenny sia, but at the very least i know i can tell my friends off without publicizing it on a public blog hoping people will “read between the lines.”
he’s a poor sod if he has friends like you. (and yes, you are a horrible friend.)
cheers.
August 9th, 2008 at 1:59 am
oops typo. do forgive me. then again, you forgave eric for his random apostrophes in your cam-whored-to-death-he-proposed-to-me post.
i should be safe.
Oh gosh, I can’t believe you actually think me so evil. I’m really really hurt, justine. To think that you can actually imagine I would be so low as to hurt you. Does it matter to you that I’m a lousy friend? You know thank you for telling me what an awful friend I am. Sniff. I’m really really sorry.
Ok I went home and cried and thought about it. I’m really sorry you were annoyed by my cam-whored to death post about my fiance proposing to me. I really, really wasn’t thinkin about you when I blogged it.
August 10th, 2008 at 2:46 am
annoyed? nah.
i was thrown into despair knowing that womankind now has a new “standard” to live up to when it comes to marriage proposals.
y’know, since it’s all one big contest to see who can one up you on your virtuous no-sex-before-marriage stance, god-given good looks, pms tantrums and being super femes.
but don’t worry, betina. you’ll always come out on top in the BS department.
p/s nice comeback. and it only took you half a day plus an extra round of editing to boot. very good try! A+
August 10th, 2008 at 9:20 pm
Hahahaha….fucken ridiculous!
August 11th, 2008 at 8:55 pm
A little birdie told me to check this out, guess that little birdie was right! This is fookin hillarious! Go the infinite smart commenters up there!