Envy.
Aug 09, 2008 in Diary-writer
I met my friend and his family today, and the glow was unmistakeable. Of course he sported a new hairstyle, and wore 'different' from what we were usually used to, but more importantly, the glow was infectious. Previously on similar meetings, the youngest kid would be running around the floor, refusing to be played with, much less hugged or kiss… and then you could see the frown on the little girls face, or maybe perhaps, you know, the kids don't really get to see daddy often, and they had to tag along on his business meetings — but even then he couldn't pay them attention.
But today, the boy was different. I got to pick the child up from the floor easily, and then later he stayed with my other colleague for the longest time, before almost falling asleep in Eric's arms. You could see the frowns on the little girl's face had now disappeared, and it was really a real joy to be in the space of this family. The stress, from all the past three years, were no longer there.
And then, DAMN, was I envious. You have no idea what's happening over here. I tell you about it, but being in the line of the fire gets a little bit ridiculous. Whatever I learnt about this, so far, the information tells me that an ethical practitioner will try as much as possible to take less of the heavyweight materials - but it doesn't seem like 'accountability' is understood here. At least previously, there were people, there were teams, and the passion for what we do helped keep us goin, but AIYAK you went first, and now…
I know I'm merely counting days, BUT DAMN I'm ENVIOUS ok…