Switch
Sometimes I want to be someone else. Not because I'm jeles of them. Not because I want to be taken in the same light as they have. But because every once in a while, I want to say the things that I couldn't say as I am.
Why?
Because of all those that would judge me based on what they see. Based on what they think they know about me. Above all, judge me based on a reputation that has long since been as pointless as it is useless. To what end? I dunno and I don't think I want to know.
There are stakes and consequences to say the things I want to say. No longer am I free to say them because the point gets lost in the sea of ignorance and disbelief. I'm surrounded by a wall of what I'm "supposed to be" that very few people seem to "get it". As much as I want to make a difference in my words, people will see it as "me being me" and will forgo the message altogether.
I try and endure the constant bouts of stupidity because what's there to it? I live with it. I blog about it. I move on. Just that these days, it's not as easy as it once was. So sometimes I just be someone else, if only to say the things I want to say, if only to be heard for what is been said, if only for a while.
August 12th, 2008 at 4:08 am
relentless self pity
What to do? Dealing with pointless stupidity all the time. You got to let it out.
August 12th, 2008 at 8:16 pm
You could always take a vow of silence for a week and see how people take it.
I used to shut up for days on end just for the effect. lol
People would do almost anything to make me talk.
Then, when you do finally speak,people might listen for a short while. [Of course, they might start asking you to shut up again! You never know. It might work though]