Fears
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A wise person once said that if you feel scared, writing down your fears will turn them into conceptual words, and then when you look at them straight in the eye, they'll slowly fade away as figments of your imagination, allowing you to emerge renewed, strong and courageous.
I'm 37 weeks pregnant according to babygaga.com, and 38 weeks pregnant according to babycenter.com. My estimated delivery date is 20 days away and pardon me, but I am scared stiff. Therefore, I'm going to do what that wise person said, and put down a list of things that I'm fearful of:
- That I can't take the pain and I'll pass out.
- That baby's head is too big for the birth canal and I have to go into a C-section.
- That the sight of the epidural needle, should I have to take one, will make me pass out (I have a phobia of needles, so the thought of the needle scares me much much more than the thought of labour pains)
- That I'm halfway driving home from somewhere when birth contractions hit me
- That I'm halfway driving home from somewhere when my water breaks!
- That I'm in the midst of conducting a meeting or speaking to an audience when my water breaks (I have a training session coming up on the 13th of January!)
- That I go beyond 40 weeks
- That I won't get thin
- That baby doesn't want to drink my milk
- That baby cries a lot at night
- That I'll look hideous during delivery and Eric takes a photo of me and twitpics or facebooks it
- That I'll poop during the delivery, and it hits the doctor or midwife's face (this is a real, real fear, ok?)
- That I'll tear badly
- That my cervix takes forever to dilate
- That baby looks like a Na'vi (cos I got naughty and went and watched Avatar, despite what the old folks say)
Let me see.
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I still feel scared. Alamak.
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Jan05
January 6, 2010 at 2:12 am
My dear chooki, maybe your baby boy will have the same birthday as mine?? I hope so~
January 6, 2010 at 11:54 am
Sweetie… none of the above will happen and you will do FINE!
I’m pretty sure of it.
Put all your trust in your gynae and in God.
January 6, 2010 at 4:53 pm
It is normal to have all those fears but when the time comes to give birth, your fears will vanish and you will breeze thru la.
You wont poop when delivering your baby la… it will be cleared out before you start your delivery journey.
You wont passed out from pain or needles because when you are in the thick of things, all you can think of is when will this whole episode end with baby smiling at me. You wont tear either if you listen to what the doctor say.. dont simply push!
Your baby will want to drink your milk. You just gotta be persistent and determine. You are the baby’s mama.. that makes you the boss.. Hehehe..
You will do fine la.. remember to stay calm and breathe.
January 6, 2010 at 11:32 pm
anything that happens within the company shall be removed from the list.
cos u have a peanut there on standby mode. XD
don’t worry lah mama!
January 9, 2010 at 9:37 am
fear? I know some people who prefer to give birth naturally in the bathroom …they make child birth seemed so…. effortless
check it out in youtube…it’s kinda cool
January 12, 2010 at 3:34 pm
hmm….well i have experienced some of your fears…but u shouldnt be afraid if the water broke or contractions while driving….even if u should be stuck in a jam for an hour….it is still ok. My water broke in the morning and i have ample time to take a bath…pack my bags and get to the hospital…..only delivered a good 12 hours later.However, you should be alarmed if the water broke followed by blood.
May 20, 2010 at 9:16 am
I’m 22 weeks pregnant and I have watched Avatar twice!!! *eeks*