Reflective
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What a year it has been so far. The baby decided to come a-knocking, I finally experienced labour and survived to tell the story, I have a cuddly little chubby boy who goes 'meh-meh-meh' everytime he wants milk, and cramps up his lips and goes, 'hrrrrrmmmm… hrrrmmm…' everytime he passes a motion, I'm busy in the office once more, I'm now significantly bigger and auntier-looking, and I hardly speak about anything else except my son nowadays.
To think that just a few years back I used to be totally puzzled as to why those 'mommy blogs' just talk about NOTHING but their kids.
I noticed that in the past few months I've less of an opinion about everything under the sun, I'm less passionate about voicing my two-sen on how religion should be practised, I'm more introverted about my political leanings, I hardly have a social life, and suddenly I'm no longer media savvy – which tells you a lot about how fast things change in this community. I took a mini-leave of about 4 months and suddenly I have SO MUCH to do in order to catch up. URGH!
The post partum depression modes threatened to turn my life upside down, and at times, I swear I was thisclose to telling Eric 'I have had enough of this shit'. But thankfully, the experts and been-there-done-thats also tell me it is totally normal to be extremely hormonal as long as I am breast feeding or as long as my period doesn't return (my period came back consistently for 3 months and then suddenly it stopped. Thank God also, that Eric loves me tremendously and incredibly, so it is in experiencing the past one year and experiencing life with Eric since marriage, that I can truly look at my life, look towards the sky (because I believe God is up there the most), look around myself and say 'oh my gosh I am so blessed.'
I'm reflective today, just for a bit. I think tomorrow I"ll be back to blogging about my kid again. Lalala.
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May24
May 24, 2010 at 7:19 pm
Claire,
PPD is something most new mothers have to deal with. The arrival of a first child turns both parents world upside down. The mother is affected the most. Babies bond with mom first, she feeds and nutures the child in ways no man ever can.
Your body is still going through many changes post delivery and hormonal fluctuations can drive the most stable women to feel as if her world is spinning out of control. A caring, compassionate and loving spouse can go a long way to aid in minimizing the impact of this life changing experience.
This is also one of marriages biggest challenges, keeping the marriage alive, having man and wife grow as a couple, and as parents.
I will pray for your success, and I trust that you and Eric turn to our Lord for his blessings!
David